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January 30, 2008

it takes two to WHAT?

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Juniper asked what things we've said to our children that we never thought would come out of our mouths. I think the list grows every week. A few highlights, some of which are definitely a boy thing:

We don't pee on each other (in the bathtub)
We don't kiss eyeballs
We don't chew on the windowsill (that one resulted in an emergency lead test for O)
We don't try to tape the dog's ears together (I'm not even going to let them find out how a stapler works)
We don't pee down the heating vents (both boys, together, at 18 months old)
We don't take poopy diapers off "all my byself"
We don't shove play dough into the outlets
We don't pee in the dog bowl (that was today. N's justification? "I was helping, mama, because it was all empty!")
We don't talk to other people about mama's "lady parts" (especially not the cute guy stuffing his locker at the Y, even if you are proud of yourself for remembering not to open the door and expose naked-as-a-jaybird mama that particular day. Unlike a few weeks ago.)

Yeah.

My readers with the cherubic, toothless drooling baby twins? You are so in for it.

January 29, 2008

answers to questions about the boys who never shut up

In response to a recent post, I received a few questions by e-mail and in the comments about our talkative boys. meanmama asked:

Do you think that your boys' early speech development helped them to be close early (communicative) or do you think they exhibited this closeness before they began speaking?

Interesting question. I think two big factors help: N is kind of one of those "active alert" kids. He's bright, quick, social, and very much a performer. He's starting to seem like the kind of kid that'll get the rest of the room going in some big imaginative theme someday, and he tends to lead his brother into elaborate story lines. He can also be very bossy, but I think this tendency of his still helps their relationship more than it hurts. Language does help their relationship, because their play is more involved due to having all those stories to tell each other now.

The other thing that makes them close is how they lean on each other. This has been true for a long time, since about 14 months at least. I have one boy (N) who has a lot of separation anxiety and fears, and another boy that is dangerously fearless, but can be much shyer than he appears, as he mimics N's social acumen. So in new situations, N leans on O to feel safe away from Mama or Daddy, and O looks to N for social cues. It always amazes me how people use the terms "shyness" and "separation anxiety" interchangeably. They are really very different animals, IMO, though one kid can certainly experience some of both, and it may be hard to tell which is which. I would say that's it's worth the effort. O doesn't miss me much, he's just a little shy. N isn't the least bit shy (believe me!), but he hates separating someplace or with someone new. The nice thing for our family is how these challenges for them have been made somewhat of a positive by helping their relationsip.

And Amy asked (and a couple of people e-mailed along similar lines):

Any advice to another mother of preemie twins about language development? Do you think it was anything you and your husband specifically did that helped with their language development, or is it just good DNA?

I wonder what trap is easier to fall into: blaming yourself for the stuff that isn't going well, or taking credit for what is? My boys were only 35-weekers, so I think some preemie parents are dealing with a whole other kettle of fish. I honestly think that most of it is probably genetic. DH and I are both very verbal, were early talkers and readers, etc. I hesitate to say anything about this at all, because I know several people who are dealing with speech delays whose kids are definitely growing up in the "language rich environment" that is so often referred to. I would hate for someone to feel like their kid's speech delay was their fault when we're mostly probably just lucky. So, keeping that in mind, here's our version of a "language rich environment": We always talked to them a lot as babies. Our kids get read to at least a half-hour to 45 minutes a day, and have since infancy. Now that O has to sit for two nebulizer treatment a day, it's probably even more than it used to be. , and our whole family is pretty much book-obsessed. We also sing, a lot. J and I both make up tunes pretty well, and find ourselves doing a lot of language play that way. We sing things rather than yell say them a lot of the time, play with rhymes, rhythm, etc. I'm bilingual (Dutch), and having that awareness of how one  language is heard through the filter of another sometimes helps in now I communicate with the boys. For instance, I'm pretty deliberate about introducing new words in a context-supported way, and do that pretty naturally without a lot of effort on my part. N is particularly responsive to this, and he and I have a continual dialogue around new words and what they mean. They have no access to TV, which has not been proven to support language development, and may even hurt with babies and toddlers, especially in the extreme. Edited to add: We also signed a bit, though not with the dozens of signs that some folks do. In retrospect, it was hugely helpful, but mostly because when you have a 9-month-old that is signing "nurse" and "more", you start looking him as a person that communicates through language. When that happens, you start talking with him and treating him differently, and off you go, "talking" together. I'm not sure success of signing in promoting language is really about "teaching your child" anything, I think it's about getting a good feedback loop going between you and that child.

So all those things are good and well, and  certainly some of it is luck and genetics and the fact that we aren't feeding them nothing but Cheeto's and bottles full of coca cola, and what have you. Most of us, the vast majority, are doing the best we can, and some of our kids still have delays. Whatever you or your family are going through in that regard, I hope that you're able to find a way to just do your own best and not feel like you're doing anything wrong. I've been very encouraged to see how much OT and other therapies have helped my friends' kids in a fairly short period of time. 

January 28, 2008

the shopping brain

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With no small amount of sheepishness, I confess that I’m kind of amazed at what I’m not buying, and even more, how often I nonetheless still catch myself mentally “browsing” whenever I’m anywhere that sells anything. Passing a vending machine (I can't even eat 90% of what's in there). The display rack at the car wash. The gift shop at the hospital when I get a candy bar. The kids t-shirt display at the Rec Center.

I mean really, shouldn’t I be able to just turn off “shopping mode” at places like this, places where I’d never intentionally set out to shop? It’s ridiculous. I’ve tried to keep a mental tally of the kind of stuff that I end up buying that I haven’t, but I’m quite sure I’m missing some of it.

Since just last Thursday morning:

2 cute kids “Mpls Pa*rks Department” t-shirts, half off at $10 apiece, to support Rec Centerscholarships. (I tried to just give $5 to the scholarship fund, but they had no idea how to take my check without giving me a shirt.)

All natural car smell spray (just get rid of the stray snack bags and open the windows for a couple of hours, for Pete’s sake) at $3.89

A few ornaments at the hospital gift shop for next year at 75% off at about $1.20 apiece (let’s say $4.80 for 4)

A lovely $12 lunch tote with cardinals and blossoms on it from the W*edge, presumably to inspire me to bring my lunch from home more often ($12)

Some coloring books for the boys ($5)

not spent =$45.60, not including tax

That’s a lot of stuff we don’t need, and the only thing I really even remotely coveted was the lunch tote. Still, I’m clearly a sucker for the “deal” under $20. Those “deals” can add up fast. I think that because women do so much of the shopping for the family, we are more trained to shop.Well, stated like that, that sounds pretty obvious, but more so, I think we're also trained to "scan", to mentally consider our options wherever we go. I am sure there are women out there who don't have this nasty habit, but I'm equally sure that some women are even worse than I am. I have a friend who once fell into the habit of spending 3-8 hours a week shopping online. She only bought a few things a week, but it took hours out of her life and put a few thousands onto her VISA. She felt a lot better, and slept better at night, when she cut the cord, stored her credit card far away from her computer, and used a timer for her internet usage. I'll never forget her description of falling asleep with the scrolling bounty on the screen still burned into her retinas.

I've started saving time too, lately. I made one big Tar*get trip to get TP and kitty litter, toothbrushes and the like, and I tried to get enough to last a few months so I can just stay out of there for a while. The weekly Tar*get trip had become as much of a routine as grocery shopping. I've been staying away from Saver's too, since even though I can technically buy used while Compacting, I'm trying really hard to clean out our junk before I bring more stuff into the house. At some point, I'll need to buy the boys shorts for summer, but I think we're pretty set for now.

I’ve been thinking a lot about how very many decisions we all have to make every single day in this culture. The amount of variety we have to choose from everywhere we go is so stressful and overwhelming for a lot of us, even if it is disguised as forms of freedom and abundance. If find that I am more and more resistant to stores that have a gazillion options, even if those same stores might offer the best value on paper. It costs a lot more to shop at the co-op, and my main reasons for shopping there have more to do with being able to find gluten-free items, healthy items, and supporting local companies and farmers. Garbage in, garbage out, as they say –and this applies to the business as well as the product and its consumers.

But another reason is more subtle. I’m also just happier choosing from 4-6 kinds of tomato sauce than I am choosing from 20, and so on for my entire shopping list. At my co-op, they do a nice job of selecting quality in general, I can special order something if I need it at a case discount, and they always appreciate feedback. The cost is high, but it’s another incentive to simplify and pare down in other areas, cook more from scratch, and buy in bulk when items are on sale. Now I need to stay out of co-op’s vast and increasingly in-your-face gift section, because for the next 11 months at least, I have no business browsing there.

And all of that is part of the point, I guess. Who do I want to serve in a day, anyway? Not Ta*rget, and not "stuff". I am more than a consumer, and the time and energy I devote to being a consumer should be more in proportion with what I want for my life. I want to serve God,  my community, my friends, my family. I want to cherish  the natural world, the creative world, and time with other people. Every minute I spend looking for a "goody" while waiting at the car wash or mindlessly trolling shopping websites for "deals", not to mention working to pay for it all, takes away from that.

It is my hope that after this year, my “shopping brain” will be a lot quieter.

 

 

 

January 27, 2008

better things to do

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Can I just vent for a moment here? I am so sick of dealing with people’s defensiveness around our not having a TV. Seriously, I have never suggested to anyone that they ought to go and get rid of their TV. Never. I’ve written quite a bit here about our experience of giving up TV, but I have never actually said what anyone else should do. And even if I do have an opinion or two about the effects of TV, well, this is my blog. Mostly, I really appreciated the interesting comments around that when I wrote about it, and most of them were from TV watchers. But face to face (and I’m just referring to recent IRL interactions), I don’t even talk about what a good experience it’s been for us. Not unless I’m also talking to someone who also watches no TV. I know better. Not having TV rarely even comes up. But on the rare occasion that it does, I typically hear some variety of the following:

  • I have an extra TV – do I need one?
  • My children are going to be socially awkward
  • My children are going to resent me
  • This is fine now, but wait until they’re [insert age between 3 and 16]
  • My children will sneak off to their friends and watch TV every moment they can
  • My children are never going to be able to turn off the TV when they’re older, because they won’t have learned “good viewing habits”
  • I am a glutton for punishment, because TV is a great babysitter
  • All the reasons why they watch TV, or their kids watch TV (for the record – I didn’t ask, and I didn’t judge you. As for you, see above.)

I am really amazed at how insulting some people are willing to be when you make lifestyle choices that don’t affect them in the slightest. Seriously, I got less crap when I smoked (back in my 20’s, before kids). Making certain choices, including non-TV-related choices, like eating healthy food and cloth diapering, does not imply that I have nothing better to do than sit around and judge other people’s different choices. Seriously, I am very careful about what comes out of my mouth regarding parenting choices, and I’m usually the one in the group begging for a little tolerance of other people. I don’t appreciate being called a “glutton for punishment” for not having a TV or cloth diapering, or whatever. I don’t appreciate basically being told I owe my kids television when I haven’t remotely suggested that anyone else ought to get rid of theirs. I’m not even going to address the things people say, because I’ve written about all that before. I think it’s total crap, and for us, the benefits, the real benefits that we experience every day, definitely outweigh the “risks”. There are some people who are simply irritated by people who question the mainstream, average way of doing things. There are some people who think other people who question our popular culture in any way need to get with the program. I confess to not being particularly fond of this type of person, but I also want to add that short of intolerance, I really do value having friends with all kinds of perspectives. 

But to the people who think it’s perfectly OK to give me a lecture on my family’s lifestyle because they feel implicitly judged: our choices are not about you.

Exhale. Anyway – I feel better now. It's been a long weekend, mostly because N fights every single transition with every ounce of his being, and well, he's driving me just a wee bit insane. Seriously, lately I've been forcing myself to go sit on his bed while he's sleeping just to get those nice maternal feelings back.  Is it mean that I put them to bed at 6:30?

Off to find tapioca pudding and tea. And read a book in the bathtub. Because I'm just that into depriving myself of life's pleasures...

January 24, 2008

twinny

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My boys are at that age when most kids are starting to make awkward overtures toward playing together. Most kids this age are starting to share smiles, loudly talk about their toys for another child’s benefit, exchange a sentence or two before retreating back into parallel play, maybe hug or say hi at the beginning of play dates. On the rare occasion that they're apart but with other kids, N and O are very good at this. Because they are twins, they have been playing together for more than a year, and are fairly well versed in the rules of shared imaginative play and very basic conflict resolution. “Trade please?” says N, already grabbing for his brother’s toy. “No!” says O, pulling it back. “Please, Ollie?” “OK”   When a boy finds something interesting, he usually looks for an “equivalent” and doles it out to his brother before settling into play, sort of a preemptive peacekeeping strategy. Since the beginning of last summer, they’ve had elaborate games, involving water, and animals, and riding in trains using our blue living room rug or a couple of laundry bins as props. Watching them play like this is a true joy of having more than one child, maybe especially so with twins.

My particular twins are not just fraternal; they look nothing alike and are different, though not necessarily opposite, in more ways than I can count. I believe that they are very different thinkers and learners, and will likely have different strengths and passions. Being boys and twins and preemies, they were in a pretty high risk category for speech delays, and our pediatrician watched their language development carefully. There was no need for worry there, it turned out, because if there’s one are where both boys have been “early” it is in the area of speech. N had half a dozen words by his first birthday, and too many to count by 18 months. The boy speaks in paragraphs these days, complete with all of our language’s parts. At 2 years 10 months, he has only a couple of toddlerisms left: he say “mans” instead of men, and “mys” instead of mine. O was a bit more typical, and considerably harder to understand at first, but when he turned two, his vocabulary also exploded into sentences, grammar, and long imaginative descriptions of his world. This also, is a joy, and certainly makes life easier for the whole family.

The downside to having very large, very verbal boys is that sometimes, like at MOPS and at church, they fold right into a group of three year olds, though emotionally, socially, even physically, they are still very much exactly their age. They are prone to meltdowns, to being overwhelmed with the effort it takes to communicate. Their fine motor skills don’t allow for drawing stick figures quite yet, or following complex directions, sitting still for a long story, or using scissors very effectively. They seem aware of this at times. Their good judgment is still emerging, and they’re still known to grab something off a counter without asking and put it in their mouths. Sitting still for a group activity is not a particular strength for either of them, though they’ll happily spend an hour of “quiet time” playing alone in their rooms. J and I fall into the same trap the nice caregivers at MOPS do sometimes. We ask too much of them, get too frustrated with their meltdowns, get stuck into thinking they should “know better by now”. I often remind myself that while not having words can be frustrating for both parents and children, having more words in your brain than you are capable of understanding entirely and always being expected to use them is also overwhelming and frustrating. Occasionally both boys will refuse to talk entirely; doing exactly the grunt, screech and point that their language delayed peers can’t seem to escape from quite yet.

People sometimes ask us if they have their own language—I’m sure this is familiar to you moms of multiples out there—and my answer is always the same. No, not really, they talk well and that’s actually very rare.. Lately, though, they’ve started playing with language together in a new way, through nonsense syllables and rhyming. Mealtimes are full of boys literally collapsing in silliness, saying “dank ooo” instead of “thank you”  and so on, trading made up phonemes back and forth, entire sentences with every word a rhyme of the one being referred to.

“Mit mown! Mime to meat, Mollie!”, says N as O is scrambling into his booster seat. “Mo! I don’t montto” yells O, giggling. Soon, the sentences and any attempt at meaning disappear entirely, and they just make up words that sound funny to them, back and forth, like a ping pong game of syllabic nonsense. They can get so engrossed in this game that their food sits untouched, my attempts to get their attention are rebuffed, and the volume gets so loud it hurts my head to hear any more. I can sometimes only break through to them by inserting my body between them, or picking up one boy out of his seat and getting his attention. I cannot imagine how long they’d carry on if they still shared a room.

They don’t share a language, per se, they don’t share any more DNA than full siblings born a decade apart, and they don’t hit most of their milestones at the same time, but they do share something very “twinny”, especially lately. They play their games, their own private language and imagination games, everywhere now. At the table, in the car, at the Y in the pool, in the doctor’s office, everywhere. They are increasingly lost without each other, and obviously relieved when they are reunited. Lately I’m also noticing that when their peers make an attempt to communicate, N and O fail to include them even though they’re well versed in the rules of play for kids their age. They turn their backs and go back to playing in their own twinny little bubble, happily oblivious to the other kids. The exception is when they play with kids at least a full year older, kids who are better at getting something going.

J and I are trying to spend some time with each boy alone every week, and we’re looking at preschools that will be likely to help them learn to play with other kids. I’ve come to the conclusion that this has more to do with a school’s commitment to doing some individual goal-setting rather than a particular philosophy. J and I think that with their different learning styles, it’s quite likely that N and O’ll do better in different kindergarten classes.

I’m curious to know though, if this is a stage, or whether they might always be a little like this. It's so hard to imagine them living apart someday, and it's easy to imagine how some twins end up going to the same college and sharing a room there.

They’re happy, joyful kids, and I’m glad they love each other to pieces. Still, sometimes I wonder if we should be doing more to make sure they let the rest of the world in on their fun.

 

January 23, 2008

break it up

I really need to train our chickens to do this with our boys.

January 21, 2008

bullseye

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An interesting and welcome revelation has been sinking in lately. I'll get to that, but in order for that to make any real sense, I have to explain two things about myself, both of which require me to be very honest.

1. I like to shop. No, I've never liked malls, but I don't like bright, loud flashy places even if they don't sell stuff. I hate sports arenas too, for example. I've never been the type to go shopping with friends, but I do however, enjoy a good "bargain", I enjoy imagining one or another of life's problem's solved, and I enjoy the idleness of considering all the possibilities.

2. I've never been a great sorter and purger. Stuff goes in, and not enough stuff goes out. I'm not a hoarder - I can let go of stuff just fine if I can sort it properly and just get it to where it needs to go. It just doesn't happen nearly often enough. Having two kids was a killer: we both had waaay more stuff ending up down there and a fraction of the energy left to deal with it. Until recently, our basement was quickly filling up for lack of attention to sorting and purging.

Now for the revelation: It turns out that I actually enjoy sorting and purging more than I enjoy shopping and acquiring. This is news to me, and I wonder what took me so long to realize it. I mean, it's not as if I really always have time and energy to do both. I think there are a few reasons. The biggest by far is that my back is often sore, and all the bending involved in cleaning out the basement makes it worse. Another is that while going to Tar*get is clean, well-lit and orderly, cleaning out the basement is messy, dusty and it's kind of gloomy down there. Another reason I forget how great it feels to sort and purge though, is media related. I'm less vulnerable to this now that we've gotten rid of the TV, but nothing on the TV or in the paper or on the radio is ever likely to tell you that you'll feel great if you just go down there and have at it. No, the TV is pretty much just going to tell you to buy more stuff to put in your basement, and the lovely Real Simple spread or Source feature in the Strib is going to tell you which streamlined organizing equipment you need to get started.

While I've often enjoyed the discovery of a good "deal", there was a downside to that enjoyment. Follow me around Tar*get for quick trip after the boys are in bed to buy cat litter and hair ties. I could be spending time with my spouse, or writing, or cleaning, but I feel like getting out of the house and we really need cat litter. So I go in, I grab that familiar red cart from the row of carts just beyond the sliding doors, and off I go, like a slow mule out of a chute. I am verily gliding down the linoleum, and to my right we have the women's clothing section, which I glance at, wondering if I should make my way back to the sale racks for a quick peek. I decide no. Same for men's clothing just around the corner. I spy all the plastic totes on sale at an end cap and I stop, almost putting one in my cart, imagining a neat row of transparent, labeled totes in my basement. I fail to make up my mind, fretting over the $7.99, and double back through the baby and toddler section. I am vaguely on the lookout for pajamas, but can't find any I like in their size, though it takes 10 minutes of looking through 4 crowded clearance racks to figure that out. Annoyed, I'm relieved to see that sweatpants are on sale, that lovely red sticker beaming an unbelievable $1.99 a pair. I throw two of each of the next couple sizes in my cart, feeling almost rich with the perceived savings. I'm pretty sure we need sweats in the next two sizes, though admittedly not certain. I remember that I have a nasty habit of forgetting what's in the kids clothing totes I have, not being able to see through the sides. I dart back over the home organization section and toss the transparent tote back in. Only I can't find a lid that goes with that particular tote, so I need one that costs the full price of $9.99. I spend a full five minutes agonizing over this before concluding that $2.00 can't possibly be that important. Off go me, my cart, 4 pairs of sweat pants and a giant plastic bin.

As I pass through the yard section, I toss in some packets of 99 cent seeds, as well as a pair of garden gloves. I smile as I think about Spring, subconsciously grateful to Targ*et for reminding me that winter will end someday. I go through the kitchenware department and admire the sleek new line of implements, spending a full ten minutes there despite the fact that I have three canisters of wooden, metal and silicone implements and I have no intention of getting more. By now, I am in a daze, gliding through various departments, my head darting back and forth in a shopper's game of no, yes, or maybe. I go past the book section and select a couple of coloring books for $99 apiece. I glance at the NYT bestseller's display. I glance at my watch and am shocked to find that a full hour has gone by. What did I need? Oh yes, kitty litter. I find it, and rather than adding the two boxes that would keep me from needing to come back anytime soon, I add only one. After all, I'm already spending quite a bit, and there's not much room left in my cart.

I wait in line, not stopping my game of yes, no, maybe even in the checkout line. I add one more item  - a 49 cent little flashlight for my key chain that will somehow never makes it's way home. Neither do the hair ties I needed, because I forgot to get  them entirely.

Walking to my car, I am slighty elated at the thought of organizing the stuff in my basement, the thought of washing the nice new sweats, and also vaguely nauseous. I try, not entirely successfully, not to think about the following: Did I really need a single thing in my shiny red bag other than the kitty litter? Can we afford this trip when you add it to all the other, similar trips? If I'd only purchased the kitty litter and hair ties, would I feel even a teensy bit more deprived the next day, or even the next hour than if I'd left it all on the shelves at Tar*get? Will J be asleep when I come home? What will end up in my cart when I go back for the hair ties?

Back to our basement. Since joining the Compact, I've been making a real effort to get rid of something every single day. Some goes to the garbage, some to the Thrift store, some will go to family members and friends with younger kids, and some to the clothing closet at work.  I still don't always like getting started. Today, my back is killing me, and I popped a painkiller before sitting down to write this. But I feel almost giddy at the thought that I may soon have no more than we really use, that I might be able to find what I need right where I left it. I love seeing the open space downstairs. I love knowing that doing this is keeping me from wasting and spending needlessly.

Every single time I walk out the back or front door with a bag or box full of stuff, I feel great in a lasting, liberating way that shopping has never brought me.

January 19, 2008

house of cards

Oh, the irony. It would make me laugh if it wasn’t so sad. We are on the cusp of a recession because for almost a decade, the folks in charge, presumably including an economist or two, allowed the U.S. economy to “prosper” on a house of cards. After 9-11, shopping was elevated to a patriotic duty. The housing boom, during which people of modest means were talked into buying (or were allowed to buy) houses they absolutely and predictably could not afford, signing onto mortgages that all but guaranteed future foreclosures, is becoming a housing bust. In our own fair city, houses are actually losing value for the first time in 20 years as foreclosure signs dot the neighborhood. Jobs, and the incomes that accompany them, are being lost at an alarming rate. Today, I heard on the radio that a record number of people are failing to pay even their phone bills without threat of being disconnected. There is nothing left that can't be charged. We are possibly the most unprepared society in modern history to deal with the realities of a real recession. Then today I hear the good news. We're gonna be fine! We just need economic stimulus! In the form of encouraging more consumer spending! All will be well, says George, if Americans will just spend more. This time, it will solve all our problems.

January 14, 2008

What this isn’t: a prescription

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I received an e-mail today that pointed out the futility of our effort, stating that this would never work if everyone did it. Well, yes. You got me. There are many worthy things that wouldn’t be so worthy, or even possible, if everyone did them. If every family in even just my neighborhood did the Compact, the shelves at Savers would be bare in a week. If everyone did the Compact, worthy Fair Trade projects like 10,000 Villages wouldn’t be possible, and responsible local businesses that sell new items would fail. Many jobs would be lost. But I question the logic that just because this wouldn’t work if everyone did it, it has no value. It makes more sense to think of the Compact as one type (and not the only type) of consumption fast. J and I definitely believe that overall consumption and fossil fuel use per U.S. household should decrease, and dramatically, but buying only used items is only one way to do that, one way that would hopefully and someday soon combine with other worthy options to re frame how we think about “stuff” and what we do about that knowledge. To illustrate that point, here are some other options that could be employed in any number of combinations:

  • Making purchases of goods only after mulling it over for a month.
  • Limiting one’s new print (books, magazines, etc.) purchases to independent media or newspapers only and purchasing all other print used. You can even buy used People’s at my local Half-Price Books.
  • Staying within a strict budget and living within your means (hi there, grandma!).
  • Not driving a car, going down to one car, sharing a car with neighbors, using an Hour Car service, or just driving less.
  • Using carbon offsets to offset your family’s carbon production.
  • Staying out of stores unless something specific is needed (not “going shopping”)
  • Buying a significant amount of recyclable and/or Fair Trade items by always checking to see if these items are available first.
  • Refusing to buy from the Big Box stores at all.
  • Borrowing “needed” items more often.
  • Going on an annual or occasional “shopping moratorium” for a week, a month, or longer.
  • Doing all your grocery shopping at a co-op, or forming a buying club.
  • Committing to buying local whenever possible (this option isn’t limited to consumables!).
  • Doing a gift compact with family members, such as limiting purchases to charity, to a specific amount, to only artisan markets, or anything else that works for your group. (I would argue that most of the conflict and frustration around gift-giving comes from the lack of such compacts, implicit or otherwise).
  • Actively working to distinguish needs from wants and making a commitment to think about the      entire effect of one’s purchases.
    • Is this a need or a want? Why?
    • Will I still want it a month from now? A year from now?
    • Where is it made? How are workers treated there?
    • How are the workers in this store treated? What is the effect of this company on my community?
    • What is it made of? What resources are used? What pollution and waste are produced?
    • What will happen to this product after it’s used? Can someone else use it when I no longer    need it? Will it ever biodegrade?
    • Can I afford this? How many hours will I have to work to pay for it? What could I do with that    time instead?
    • What else could I borrow or buy used instead?

Ultimately, I think that the last option (the entire set of questions) makes the most sense on a large scale, because it naturally incorporates some of the others. Those types of questions are the kinds of questions I hope to discuss regularly with my boys and within our family as the boys grow up. They are the questions that are left out if kids get any kinds of “consumer education” at all. Unfortunately, I’m not sure that I can develop the habit of going through that entire list with every single purchase. Just like with TV, I wasn’t able to quit it by turning it off (not even close, actually) I do the vast majority of food and other shopping for our household because that’s how we have the division of labor set up in our household, so it’s mostly up to me. Shopping co-op was a much better way for me to shop more responsibly than going through a “list” every time and shopping wherever I wanted to for food, because I know that simply by the virtue of it being a co-op with certain values, I can make more responsible purchases, plus I vote in the Board of Directors of that co-op and can let them know that I expect them to make sure there are responsible options available whenever possible. I am unwilling to live without a car (though we only have one), and my back doesn’t allow for biking. I think that to really consume less, and especially to form new habits, I need to commit to not buying new items. Even though I already buy quite a few items used, there are a probably hundreds of things that I put on my mental “Tar*get list” every year.

I am also frustrated by the sheer amount of “stuff” in our house, and wonder how it got that way in the seven years since we got married. I’ve had to buy items because I couldn’t find the original! Things get broken because they’re not organized enough to take proper care of. I can’t find what I need. We need a year to pare down, stem the tide, sort, and re-evaluate. A re-set button for distinguishing between “need” and “want”. We aren’t particularly egregious consumers by U.S.standards, but it still feels like too much. Way  too much.

Ultimately, if you have the goal of consuming less, producing less fossil fuels, and not supporting slave labor, it seems to make the most sense to see what area you and your family can most successfully make a difference in. For us, the Compact is it, at least for this year. Our boys aren’t yet old enough to howl in protest, and we’ve been talking a lot about how best to impart good values to our children around money. It seems to come down to good habits, values, and knowledge, but like anything else, what we actively model will probably have the biggest impact of all. By taking the time to integrate better habits and clarify our values,  we have a little bit of time before the boys are older to best figure out how to model those values and habits.

And so far, it feels absolutely exhilarating. Something clicked inside me when we committed to doing this, something freed itself up. I walked back into the mall this week to pick up the eyeglasses I’d ordered the week before we joined the Compact, and looked around at all the stores, all the lovely merchandise, all the false promise of consumer happiness, and realized that pretty much everything in the entire mall was off limits to me. For a year. Hallelujah..

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Next up (not necessarily in order):

  • The culture we live in, the culture we create and the culture we choose
  • Perceived obsolescence: consumerisms’ greatest friend
  • Planned obsolescence: a second-hand shopper’s greatest enemy
  • Money changers: a faith perspective on money and the religion of consumerism.
  • Lifestyle changes vs. activism (why we need both, and how they intersect)
  • Rarely borrowed items and items rarely bought used: an underutilized resource (AKA: would the person who recently chopped off all their long hair please put some hair ties in my church mailbox?)

 

(A note: I’m in the process of setting up another blog under my real first name just for this project so I can share this journey with family, my church, and friends. I mention this only because I will be cross-posting (with perhaps a little editing for context) about the Compact quite a bit, and I want to be honest about that in case you ever find the other blog somehow. I will enable comment moderation there and ask that if you should ever stumble upon it somehow, to please comment on the relevant post here, and not there. If I see a comment there from someone who I know through this blog, or someone could find this blog somehow by clicking on the comment, I will delete it. This stuff is kind of awkward, but I really want to keep this space as “Emmie space”, a safe place to interact with all of you that isn’t accessible to all friends or any family (with the exception of J and one SIL). I don’t trash anyone on my blog, but I do write about my difficult childhood as well as some family conflict, and it’s hugely important to me that I be able to keep doing that. If you have any advice in this area, please do share it – I’m kind of getting that tangled-web feeling.)

Compact rules: our family's version

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It seems that most people who are doing the Compact have some exceptions, even if they don’t realize it starting out. We realized the day after starting that we’re overdue for a new hard-to-find furnace filter and 2 new carbon monoxide detectors. I am committed to having the Compact inconvenience us regularly, and even hurt a bit, but J and I also have a general avoidance of excess legalism that will serve us well here. Our most absolute commitment is avoid any type of impulse buying.

Here’s our list:

  • Underwear. J and I are set for the year—aren’t you so glad to know that?— but the boys will need some new briefs soon.
  • PJ’s for the boys if we can’t find them used. I can often find blanket sleepers, but I think a lot of thrift stores don’t get or take cotton pj’s.
  • Shoes for the boys (if needed). We will purchase all other clothing used, but we will not reject gifts (the giver isn't doing the Compact, we are).I would actually argue that it is often possible to buy used shoes for kids, at least where I live. You wouldn’t believe the amount of barely-used name brand shoes I’ve found at thrift stores, both for myself and the boys. I suspect that this is a by-product of people buying shoes for kids online and having them not be quite right. At least at a used store, we can try them on. Right now for the boys, we have 2 pairs of Merrill’s, a pair of Land’s End sneaks, and a pair of Stride Rites, all fitting well and very close to new when we bought them. All three brands are often bought online. Oh, and the four year old daughter of the most recent person who informed me that shoes must always be purchased new? Was wearing princess slippers with a one-inch heel.
  • Car parts if needed, and parts related to services (such as a plumbing job or small house repair). It is rarely practical to deal used with these typed of things unless you know what you're looking for, and I would find it quite difficult to tell someone else to. I will make an effort if it seems at all doable, though, and we don't have any major remodeling planned. The biggest purchase related to our house that could be new will be the roof parts and lattice for the expanded chicken coop this summer.
  • Sheet music for J’s job (not available used in any kind of practical way, necessary for him to work)
  • Items that are a safety issue (carbon monoxide detectors, furnace filters, bike helmets for the boys this summer)
  • Consumables, such as food and cleaning supplies (though I want to work on this area a bit too).

It’s in this last category of consumables that the line seems to get pretty fuzzy. Cleaning supplies are on the list, but how about pens? Printer cartridges? Make-up? I don’t really wear make-up, and I don’t need pens anytime soon, but I could see needing a printer cartridge, and I didn’t pre-shop for them or anything else. Still, I could see posting my need on Craig’s List and giving it a week, providing anyone who responded doesn’t live too far away. It’s in this category (not necessarily “needed” consumables) that I do a lot of wasteful purchasing, so it’s worth thinking about even though I don’t plan to brow-beat myself over buying a printer cartridge. I’ve been thinking a lot about this category – I think it’s an area that has a ton of waste associated with it because of the low “value”.

Here’s an example: this past Saturday, I was looking for a little hair clip and couldn’t find one. I made a mental note to buy more, until I remembered the Compact. I spent 10 whole minutes looking in various drawers, our medicine cabinet and a seldom-used purse, and found several. I now have a whole year to make a habit of that kind of thing.

We are not making an exception for gifts. Part of doing this is being willing to deal with some discomfort and inconvenience, and putting ourselves out there a bit, and at least now we have an explanation that may lead to a good discussion. Mostly, we do birthday gifts for a few family members, and Christmas gifts for the kids. We can easily find really nice used books and toys in our area, so that’s not a problem, and I think J’s family members will understand if we buy used items for my nieces. I can politely abstain from doing “Secret Santa’s” at work, or make fudge or something. The hardest will be the few adult family members we have to shop for, and any birthday parties the boys are invited to but we have some time before we have to figure that out. It does seem like every list I find of “hand-made gifts” involve a trip to the craft store. Suggestions (especially non-crafty suggestions) are welcome.